Hey, I am an alien (the cutest u can ever find XP) from the most recently found planet that gobbles up brain cells, known as NP. My name is Li Ying and I belong to the 211th century. Yes, two-hundred-and-eleven, not twenty-one. I flew down to Earth out of curiosity on 17.12.1990. My hobbies are singing, talking and eating. That's why Im in love with DM. I also like reading, watching videos and tv, listening to music, exercising and sleeping. Da Mouth is my heart, soul and everything. The air, I cant live without.
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Family & friends.
Mother nature.
DM.
Sports.
Music.
Books.

Direct eye contact with DM.
Be 1mm away from DM.
Get DM's limited edition album.
DM's limited edition cap.
Sendaaisa's book.
F1 LG ROCKS concert tickets.
Try my very best.
Learn swimming.
Lose ** kg.
Digital camera.
Two pairs of jeans.
Travel to Japan, Taiwan and Hong Kong.
Have lots of money.
To grow psychologically and physically.

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Because I'm Stupid
Yearning Heart
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Yorksun.

I don't know what I'm doing now.

When everyone is busy studying for their common test now,
I'm still slacking here. surfing the net... watching youtube, fb-ing, listening to music....

Then its like everyone's saying how I shld be like them too, GO STUDY.
And I felt so bad for not doing that.

BUT I dunno... I seriously have no idea what I'm doing now.

A lot of things around me are happening now....

My life's in a complete mess now..

Everything's just no longer the same anymore.
I know, nothing is definite in life.
But, I'm dreading this... the situation I'm in now.
Its just not me. I know.
I'm so disappointed with myself, and with the life I'm leading now.


Is this what I want???
I felt like a lost bird in the sky, practically charging forward, with no goals and no intention of where the next destination is.
I know I might be worrying too much...but.. I dunno...
Its just that everything's so different now...
Family, friends, studies....everything.
I dunno how long I can sustain like this for.

Everybody is having their own life.
Even if I say, nobody would really listen to me.
Who'd care about mi when they have their own things to do?
I'm just being very self-centred, or a person who only knows how to trouble others if I approach them.

Right now, I don't even know how I'm going to finish this post.
I feel so sad... so lost... and troubled.
Why???

Maybe I've been suppressing all these for a long time.
Trying to avoid all that.
That's why I'm feeling so terrible now.
Why is this happening to me?
Everyone has their own problems.
But...I just can't take it lying down that I'm not being myself.
I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do.
What I want to do.
I'm just not me anymore.


I hate it.



Nobody.



I've never felt as helpless, lost and troubled as this before.
Think its bcos I've avoiding to accept the fact for the past 4 years and 8 mths...
And now that I've finally wanted to face it, I find its too huge a burden for me.
I felt like dying.
I don't know how I'm going to face tomorrow, my family, my friends, the future that's probably in store for me, everything.


I felt so weak now...


What exactly should I do now?