Monday, July 7, 2008
Drained....but life well-spent
Thurs Thursday marks the end of Toastmasters's NVC event. It was a rather fulfilling experience for mi. I knew I shld have been more alert and focussed, I'd not have to rush from the backstage to the front, and having to rush thru my speech for the first 2 paras, giving ppl the wrong impression that I'm actually nervous, when in fact I am panting!! Well, I knew for myself I'd have did a lot better. Even though I did not perform up to my standards that night, and desperately wished for a second time, I've learnt many things from it. I've gained a lot of things.
To overcome my fear of giving presentations, to know the importance of practising ur speech before the actual thing, and most importantly to gain valuable friendships!!! XD
It was realli enriching for mi. I realised I'm not as timid and afraid of presentations anymore. Toastmasters has inevitably given me a very very gd platform for mi to improve my public speaking skills. Joining this club is definitely a choice well-made!!
But once again BIG THANKS to all who attended. Bows!! ^_^
Had a party after that at Mr Aaron's staff apartment. They ordered 10 pizzas, which is like so exaggerating!!! I managed to help them finish a quarter slice of cheese pizza onli. Well was rather full, (dunno what came over mi - didn't had my dinner but still felt full) and I left at 11.30pm. Waited for a long time before the buses came. And eventually reached home at 1am. Was SOOO worn-out that I went to sleep instantly!!!!!!!!!!
I realli enjoyed myself during this period of time. Though tired but well-spent. These few weeks of re-editing and practising of drafts has definitely paid off at the end. I can still rmb my speech even up till now!! I'll never forget this for the rest of my life!!!
Some snapshots of what happened that night
Gathering of all the members involved in the NPSTMC NVC 2008
My new found BESTIE Ruby!!! YES!!!! We'll def. be hanging out tgt even after this NVC. :D
And finally of course a grp photo with Ruby's and my new friends yeah!!
Fri
I'm def. feeling much much more better after yesterday's crying.(before the NVC) I knew it had affected my performance on Thurs. But den again, I realli cannot understand what Mr Chua is talking about in class. All the things abt ELTECH is realli making mi crazy now!!! I know the class can understand what he's saying bcos they had studied before. But for mi, everything is realli brand new, and plus the fact that I studied onli Combined Science in Sec sch, I realli felt like giving up. Esp. ytd, during the lesson. I knew I shldn't have cried and shed any tears again, I dun want to let ppl think that I'm weak. I told myself to control all those tears from falling, BUT still, they went against mi. Maybe its bcos of this cca thing too, that I cannot focus on my studies right now. For this module, EG 2 and even ENGMEC. I'm realli not a multi-task person, this I admit. Haix.. well guess I'm going to pull up my socks soon!! Since NVC is already over and its not going to be an excuse for mi anymore. But today, I can see that Mr Chua is trying to help make it up to mi today by lending mi his book today. And he offered to give mi his top student's no. so that I can call her during the time he's away abroad. Though what he said yesterday made mi realli sad, and I thought he was despising mi bcos he was saying so loud to the whole class that went smth like this:
"Can u understand? I think I will ask one of my Year 3 students to teach you."
This is what he told mi after he failed to explain clearly to mi the questions I asked him. Its not that I dun understand at all. Perhaps its all the stress piled all together, from the NVC as well as from sch. If this goes on that I cannot catch up with the class, I'm realli going to collapse... =[
But still thanks to him for lending mi the book, which hopefully will turn out to be useful(I haven had the time to read up yet) and giving mi the top student's no. to call should I have any problem.
And Yes!!! I'm so happy today!!! cos I met so many of my friends in sch today. From CHS, Li Rong, Li Lin, Li Wen and more!!! All those that I've not seen for a long time!! Finally saw Shihui Ng in sch today!!! YES!!! haha.. Perhaps fate is being kind to mi, for having to let mi meet them, to brighten up my dampened mood. :)
Sat
Tuition from 11am to 4pm. I knew very clear that without work, there'll be no money for mi. And right now my wallet's left with onli 20 CENTS!!! Can u imagine bringing 20cents out? I can live my life like that, when I'm saving money. But u can see how broke I am right now. If not for the taxi fare on Mon, I'd have an extra $15 with mi now. :((
Sun
Tuition again from 2pm to 5pm. But sometimes I realli like going to tuition bcos u can see how warm-hearted the aunties realli were. Today the student's Ah Ma insisted on cooking for mi a bowl of fishball noodles before I left. I was realli touched. This is not the first time eating her noodles there. She understood my family situation and wanted to let mi taste how homemade food is like. With no extra msgs inside, and all fresh ingredients. I'm realli thankful for her and also another auntie at Marsiling ytd. They always helped mi a lot, making mi feel like home whenever I went there to give tuition. Even though I cannot and will not be able to find the affection from a closed one at home anymore, I can realli find it from them. Thanks so much for giving mi what I needed. :) At this very crucial period of time. My teenage years. My life would definitely be a lot more sadden without these benefactors around. I find that I cannot concentrate on my studies now. I'm realli not into the mood of studying. My mind's all about everything else except for studying. I'm so lagged behind in my studies but I just dun feel like studying at all. I HATE STUDYING RIGHT NOW!! It can be so taxing and yet so relaxing at times!!
But think of it again,
I can only be thankful for all that I have right now. :)
P.S Its not fair that there's no Youth Day for poly life. :(
'LiYing typed @ 12:26 AM♡.